Yazabilirsem eğer...

Yıllardır yıllardır diyorum ki kendime, yazabilsem eğer... Dile getirebilsem düşündüklerimi kaygısızca... Onları herkes okusa ama ben yine de kaygısızca yazsam, içimden düşündüğüm gibi söylesem her şeyi... Olmuyormuş. Yine de denemeye devam ediyorum.

17 Eylül 2008 Çarşamba

Life could be pleasing but...

The life is... when you are totally loved and you are indifferent... When you want to do something and you cannot do it.. the life is when you stay at home and you feel like you are drowning... when nobody calls you...when you expect but you cannot get... when everything is black and white in your mind... when tit seems there is no way out... even when you do not love a single person at that moment.. when you are on bus and it is crowded and the traffic is stuck.. when it is very hot and you are in a small,closed, crowded place... when your room is in total mess and you dont care... when nobody calls you.. when you call them and cannot get a single answer... when people cancel meetings... when you dont like taste of your meal and you have to eat it and even it is the only meal of the day... when you have a lot of choices but they are far away... when you cannot decide and hesitate.. when you hold on in hesitation... when you are confused and cannot think... when you are tired and cannot sleep... when you hate your work.. when you have to study and weather is nice.. when you go out and weather is fucked up... when you have thousands to add this list..

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